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2024apr16. post-COA Harv writes.

Last week Harv ALMOST completed a closure of COA Computing -- including defense of his energy spent as if there might be some magical psychological short cut, or simply, better luck with Harv's next life period, akin to jumping from the fry pan into the fire.

Harv moves on. With COA Computing closed (nearly, whereas practice makes 'perfect' after every micro/macro closure). He proceeds with COA Dining as the basis of elder sociality, including continued discussion of mutual computing problems. But his controlled sociality time is greatly reduced vis shedding of past Computing Activity. He now has freed time to move on to focus on 'better' tasks, projects, ... Perhaps this Modus Operandi is a fatal flaw. However, his life flow being portrayed in Blogger means to him not a flaw but growth -- as in a human's universal fulfillment needs, that is, existence needs, relatedness needs, and growth needs.

Why closure of any life period? 2024apr09. closure. What science says about closure. Closure may sometimes give someone a feeling of control where there wasn't one before, and it may provide a stronger foundation from which one can take action and move forward. The need for closure may stem from the way the human mind makes sense of the world. And give insight into why others involved exercised their autocratic control (chain of command) without explanation. The intensity of a person's need for closure may depend largely on their personality. People with an intense need for closure may be used to being in control and prefer life to go as planned. They may feel distressed by and have a desire to avoid uncertainty, and their sense of safety and well-being may depend on structure and plans. In addition to individual differences in personality, situational factors can impact the extent to which someone may feel the need to achieve closure. Conversely, people with less need for closure may tend to be more creative, open-minded, social, willing to "go with the flow," and spontaneous. These individuals may have already made up their minds about a situation, but they can often remain willing to consider alternatives. They may also be more likely to enjoy spontaneous activities and keep friends who are unpredictable. https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/relations/defining-closure-psychology/#

Harv plans for his life to be 'forever-better'. This intensity as existed throughout Harv's lifetime, beginning with pre-school walk-away evidence. Many choices were subsequently made -- some 'good', some 'bad' -- but responsible nonetheless to form the factual basis for the next move 'better'. Perhaps this reflects a Stoic philosophy but without formal evidence -- his study of Stoicism stagnates remaining unclosed. SRF study similarly remains unclosed. And the big one -- his personal writing remains unclosed.

Mother Connie frequently queried adult Harv, "How much education do you need?" We never talked that out, but Harv has frequently thought the response, "All of it."

Harv has been medically diagnosed with Mild Cognitive Impairment (MCI) (writing continues), and he takes medication for the MCI condition. Can this MCI condition explain Harv's many life flow explanations.

Harv considers himself well and unstressed. He is able to monitor his stress and destress accordingly. His wellness is promoted by a new PCP who also monitors this CKD and 'dementia' conditions. Harv also sees a nutritionist regularly with GFR and weight control lifestyle tweaks in mind. Overall, he is tired, sleeping on hundred hours weekly. In reverse order from 2024week15, his sleep hours were worsening 85 95 97 99 109 83 103 91 94 83 83 79 79 96 91.

With the MCI weakness a reality, Harv views the following areas as challenges for a 86yo going forward 'better'.

"learning new things"
"struggling ... through everyday problems"
"more challenging to focus" -- attaining slept out status
searching for words in conversation -- slurring -- missing an easy name
tiredness, although he has sweet dreams and eventually is slept out and mentally alert to reality

He has MCI. Does he have dementia ? Probably -- but his lifestyle keeps it at bay.

"For many people it’s not possible to know what’s causing their MCI, although it may become clearer over time. "

The MCI is not relenting or getting better. Over time Harv is more tired. He is an 86yo and actively proceeds relatively undaunted, buoyed by 2024 Tmobile 5G 'home internet, RIM alternator and exhaust system proven 'good' but the idler pulley was 'bad', found potential replacement for past car mechanics, continued COA socialization, and coped with friends-challenges as a relatedness essential, followed a plant based diet enough to return GFR from a down trend, and no regrets from an $8000 world cruise cancellation loss. and reductions of hi blood pressure medications, ... In sum -- a positive outlook going forward.

With multiple lifetime closures, and CKD/MCI/dementia in abeyance, he moves more directly to his aim of personal writer and a post-PhD case-study of functional organization.

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